Forward
Just go forward, Fabian! Don't look back. Just go, forward.
A lot has been racing through my mind since I wrote this. I haven't really been able to gather my thoughts about the whole situation that occurred on March 25th - preventing me from really expanding on it. Then I decided, all though still ripe in my mind - it's better not to dwell so much about it. I'll just leave it at some friends really should reevaluate how important they say their friendships really are.
In other news, I met a really awesome Pharmacist/Cosmetologist the other day at Fiesta Cantina of all places. I really hope she can help me out in decided whether pharmacy is really for me.
A good push..
I just got done with a good 20 minutes of Stairmill climbing followed by a pretty awesome hour-long 24Cycle class at the gym today. Although it still wasn't enough to get rid of the mad punch to the gut I received when I saw my exam score for the Photosynthesis & Cell Respiration exam. Gah! It stung! I won't elaborate much on the exact score but just know that I have been studying quadruple overtime lately just to secure an
Perhaps more strict utilization of my planner should suffice.
A grade in the class. I'm pretty sure that if I receive anything less than an A I'm going to quit my job and just focus completely on school. Looking at the exam when I took it I felt completely lost. I thought I knew the material - just not in the format that she had asked. Perhaps I didn't know the material inside & out, I couldn't make a connection - I just knew what I read at face value. No connection to biology, just to the chapter.
Perhaps my study habits need a bit more conditioning. So far I've created vocab lists for the Cellular Reproduction chapter & I've completed a few flashcards I plan on memorizing by tonight so I can test my knowledge on them by tomorrow.
I'm not really sure how well I'll fare on my next exam but if it's anything ≤ 90% I'm going to be extremely disappointed! Perhaps I shouldn't put too much emphasis on this class, but the way I get graded in these courses really does affect my chances of getting into a good Pharmacy school. Filamer was telling me I need to surround myself with stressballs so that I know everything that's going on. They tend to stay on top of things. That's something I really don't need help with but perhaps knowing that they're stressing out about something that probably isn't a big deal will make me wonder why I'm not taking it as serious. I'm sure their goals would be similar to mine, and I don't want to seem like a lazy person - so maybe they'll change me into what they are (well, stress is bad but sometimes it's good - I think).
This weekend sounds like it'll be an interesting one! I finally finished that "Emotional Intelligence" test that I've been bugged about for MONTHS already (sorry, Erika!) & I've also informed the new ULMSP coordinator that I'll be attending Dr.Daley's dinner this weekend! So exciting! It was either that or Larry's Birthday tournament which I really don't care too much for anyway. I'm looking to network with these people! I want to travel the road they've traveled! Learn their struggles and how they've overcome them, and, if possible, apply them to my life. I'm really excited for what's in store, but I get so intimidated by some of them. In any case, I know that they see me as a student of theirs & I am there to learn. Let's just hope I've made the connection I need to intake it all before the week is up.
Ahh, push it!
Mobile Blog – Aspire
I'm on a quick snack break from Biology class and figured with the hour break we're given (today it was two) I would write about the things I intended to accomplish this year.
Clouds in my coffee...
I think it was the fact that I missed the deadline for the internship I wanted to apply for that set me off enough to inspire this entry. Well, that and being completely under prepared for the exam this morning. I wonder what inhibits me from performing to the best of my abilities. I don't think I can blame work anymore considering my hours are usually on weekends. Is it the stress of paying my parking ticket? That'll be taken care of by the 25th and although I'm sure I'll have the complete amount by the due date I'm just worried about what to do with the LACK of money I'll have after! $446.00 dollars can really put a dent in ones wallet ): .
Salt Ramen! MMM!
Back to the topic, I have always wanted to set aside a list of goals to accomplish within a set amount of time. Kind of similar to New Year Resolutions, but I want to be more strict and specific with the goals by expressing how I plan on achieving them, and the obstacles that stand in the way of doing so. I'm not saying that people aren't like that with their resolutions but to be completely honest - who really keeps their resolutions? I work at a gym - I know this.
In other news, I was able to hang out with Ricardo for a couple of hours to catch up on time lost over an awesome bowl of local ramen here at Mitsuwa. Even though I'm sure the amount of Sodium is through the roof, the food is pretty calming. Perhaps all hot soups are, but ramen is just so colorful I can't help but love it.
Changes
I don't really recall the last time I posted a blog, though lately I've been craving to free these voices inside of me that I haven't really had an outlet to do so - until now. I'm really lazy to study, I think I only spent three hours at Broadway Coffee but because of all the partying I did last night after another three hours of studying my mind was elsewhere.
I wasn't sure how I would approach the topic (it being my first on my new website with a new host) of changes, considering the term is so vague and now every time I hear it I think about Obama & his campaign for presidency. I thought it up when I combined my trip to Vegas three weeks ago & the events of last night. When one brings up that they have become a changed person it's always safe to assume that they changed for the best. Acknowledged their faults and altered them accordingly; but when one changes for the worse it's always a much more dangerous situation. Especially when you anticipate that you've reconnected with a better person.
There's a little "I told you so" voice repeating itself in the back of my head, yet another says - it's all part of the learning process. I don't think I was the same person I was three weeks ago. Perhaps in personality, but the way I approach relationships has changed ever so slightly. I've actually reached what I consider to be a darker phase of my already non-existent love life. Is that possible? Perhaps I've considered my approach to be much more straight-forward. Can I see myself dating you? I can't? Well then I guess you're just going to have to go. I've learned that even if you think you've found the smartest, most honest person you will ever encounter - they can turn on a dime, show you facets you've never seen, sides you've never really considered.
There's always two sides of a person, and there's always two sides to a coin - but the sides of the coin can never change. Does the same theory-craft apply to people as well?